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February 25, 2006
Come hear some music
If you're a punk or like punks, or if you just want to hear some punk musixors, come on out:
(google map to location: 304 friar rd, chattanooga, tn)
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February 18, 2006
I know exactly what to do
but I can't.
And things just get worse...
I've got to fight.
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Pain of Pains
Rejection hurts. I know that and you know that, but I feel like I've got to get it out. And I know that I pride myself on not making entries that are "emo" or drama-related entries here, and I feel like I've done that because I've not had to make an entry every time I had a fight with my girlfriend or had a bad day and couldn't get my hair to do that...j/k...anyway, even though I'm not a fan of that kind of posting, this is important. This is a "life-changing event" for me, so I'm going to break my own rule on emotional posts, just to have it here (as a record, and hopefully a cathardic method).
When I say that rejection hurts. I'm not talking about asking this girl out and she says no rejection. I'm talking about someone you love very deeply rejecting from their life. My girlfriend (I mean ex...) is doing that now. And it is killing me on the inside. I've spent the last few days just crying now. I've got a great new job that I really like, but now I don't even want to think about working. It is my strength and then some to even get out of bed.
The worst thing though is this feeling. I don't know how to describe it. It's a mix of dispair, loneliness, worthlessness, anger, and many other horrible things, but what hits the hardest is the worthlessness. The facts that I don't really matter to her, and she's already over me and dating again (!) have me feeling like trash. It's so gut wrenching. Not only was she my closest friend but she was my only friend. The fact that I have no friends now stands clearly as evidence in the case that I am worthless.
We were together for about 2 1/2 years. But I know it was longer. It had to have been for me to feel the way I do know. I never thought that this heavy emotional pain could effect me so greatly that I am physically sore, but even as I type but limbs ache and my stomach is a stormy ocean.
The greatest irony in my writing this is that she suggested I talk to someone in order to help deal with it, but I told her I had no one to talk to. Yes I have parents and a councelor, but I really don't know how to talk to them about things like this. Odd that I can so easily write this here where any may see it.
The worst part is that I have no one to blame but myself. It's my mistakes that ruined this wonderful thing we had. I also thought that love can over come mistakes...how naive was I? I was taking it for granted.
I really really want to be high right now...
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February 13, 2006
ZOMG: Why didn't you tell us first Cheney?!?!?
Did anyone see the press conference at the white house today? What a joke. Everyone was asking Scott Mcclellan if he thought it was appropriate to tell the Corpus Christi Caller-Times instead of breaking the story nationally. What the hell kind of question is that? Basically what it ammounts to is a bunch of whiney reporters complaining that they didn't get the story first. I'll tell you why they didn't get the story first! The Vice President is aware that the mainstream media is out to get him and the rest of the Administration.
You can see that today in this: count the number of times they mention it took 24 hours for them to find out. So what? I've got news for you: its not a big deal when it takes 24 hours to report a non-event! And that's exactly this is. It is very common in this style of bird hunting for hunters to be "peppered" as the term goes. Once a flock is flushed, you line up on them and follow with your gun. At this point you follow the flock and fire. Let me explain how a shotgun shell works. It is filled with birdshot which are a tiny metallic balls. When you fire all this is spread into the air in an effort to hit the birds. This is much more effective than a regular bullet which you would be stupid to try and aim at a bird and hit it as it flies away...I'm rambling.
As I stated before in this type of hunting, it is very common for hunters to be hit with birdshot. Usually this occurs without the skin being broken, but in this case the hunter went to look at a bird he had down and entered into Cheney's area without announcing to Cheney his presence, as is a comon safety procedure.
Just now watching the Abrams Report he asked the question "If you shot someone would you be able to walk away?" Cheney didn't just walk away! He and his staff assissted the man and Cheney was questioned by the local Sherrif and then Cheney went to the hospital with the guy. What bull. The mainstream media makes me sick to my stomach.
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My New Job: Sushi Chef
I finally got a new job! I've been hired at Sekisui. If you don't know where or what it is, its a sushi shop (well more than a shop, a Japanese restaurant). It's located at the corner of Market and 2nd (GoogleMap) above the candy shop.
I've eaten there a lot in the past and even made an entry about it once. Looking at the entry, I don't think it leaves as good an impression as it should for this place. I love it. I'd encourage anyone who loves sushi to try it out.
Anyway, starting tomorrow I'm going to be trained as a sushi chef and I am very excited. Come by and see me sometime!
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February 7, 2006
Bruce Pearl, NCOTY + Lofton's 31 Own Kentucky
The National Coach of The Year, Bruce Pearl, coaches Tennessee to yet another win and a big one. This is their 4th in Rupp Arena (last was 1999) and their first win against Kentucky since 2002.
Chris Lofton shot a career-high 31 including a career-tying 7 threes. I guess when you're Mr. Kentucky Basketball in the state of Kentucky and you're ignored by the home team, it just brings out the best in you to come home and show that team that they made a big made a mistake.
Way to go Vols. Keep it up!
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